.f e a r s. .s c a t t e r e d. .d r e a m s.

Semester 4 over, baby! Yeah!
So over the holidays, I've become my mum's PA. And I'm getting paid for it! RM300 a month. Which is aight. (But I'm wondering if I still get my monthly allowance on top of that O.o;)
Speaking of money, me and Alex's shared cheque of RM2500 will be coming in soon. He got the call this morning, and they will confirm with him when he can get the money. They've prepared it already
...but the thought of having so much debts killz me >.>
Here's what I owe:
1. Rozy - RM115 (OMG)
2. Jafri - RM50
3. Adam - RM10
4. Andrew - RM60

Total: RM235
..eep >.>

Ah. But. I will buying alot of stuff with that money! After belanja-ing my friends, I'll probably get something from megagears.com and also a keychain I have been eyeing for so long! It'll finally be mine!! What else... A body gel from The Body Shop (hope it's still there) and I am tempted to buy a few prints on Deviantart >.>
And then, probably, loads of Prisma Markers xD;
I know I will be so t3h broke by the end of it all :3

But anyways, I will be keeping myself busy with watching alot of anime, downloading, organizing my stuff.. And drawing and CGing! I want to get better! So I've decided to try to do CG work at least once every week from now on.

Also, I'm seriously wanting to make a gunblade out of styrofoam and other stuff. Because I probably would like to cosplay during next year's comic fiesta as a female version of Squall. So I need Squall's gunblade~!

Other than that, my body clock is out of whack. So for the next one week I will be sleeping at irregular times. BAH.

On an unrelated note, my tablet is going to die soon.
On a related note, can't wait for my money to come in XD

Hurm. I think that's all I can say for now. Gotta watch 'Heart' now! (An Indonesian love story)

Note: This journal entry has been shamelessly cross-posted on all my blogs. Because I am lazy XD;

Turrah! And feel free to disturb me (after a week, tho).. My semester is over. I am free!!

Edit: OMG I can't believe I forgot about warcraft!! Yaaaay I finally have time to play it!! And RO as well. Waaaaa. SOMEONE *cough* *cough* has to quickly upgrade his line coz i need someone to tank me...!! Muahahhahaa *hyperness*

WARGH!!

Damnit I was supposed to have holiday, like, a week ago T.T but now I'm coming back to college because there are alot of submissions that I haven't finished. GAH.

Things I need to submit:
1. Illustration Final (finished, just the journal need to paste 4 more papers which is at home OTL and will submit it tomorrow)
2. Sociology and Design: Peacevolution report (GAH. At least I have done my references...)
3. Goth Subculture powerpoint presentation in a CD (Haven't burned it into a CD yet. Do that in a bit and submit it today or tomorrow...)
4. Photography Journal (for 2nd assignment) (just need to PROPERLY bind it. To be passed up tomorrow :D )
5. Sociology and Design Journal (FUUUUUUUCCCCCKKKKKKK analysis!!!)
6. Computer Graphics - Pop up card (done, printing it tomorrow and *&%$@# cutting it slowly because I wouldn't want to re-print it... waaaahhhh it costs around RM50++ to print it yo~)

WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA damniiiiittttt... and what's this rumor of my next semester starting in January?! DAMNIT I WANT MY 3 MONTH HOLIDAY BIATCH!
huhu...
I'm hungry... Currently in college with my Nyanko-chan (my core-duo processor dell laptop baby!!) and leeching off the powersource in Design 3. Just finished my pop-up card and and currently blur and friggin cold! (I'm too scared to turn off the aircond because there's 3 people in the classroom that I don't know.)

Wah. Oh. And I'm in the star newspaper baby!! Along with my classmate, Alex :P

On another note, I'm hungry.
On a related note, I am broke =____=;;

Goodbye cruel world. Until friday, that is xD
after college finishes i will lock myself in my room with nyankyo-chan and update myself on ES21, D.Gray man, Naruto (fillers, i know, but i don't care!!) and start watching Bleach and CG and write and do marker renderings and god knows what else!!

Wheeeeeee. Turrah! <3

I haven't made a proper entry in a long time, so I'm taking my (leisurely) time to do it now.

Yesterday was Hari Raya! Selamat Hari Raya to all my fellow muslim friends and Happy Holidays (LOL) to my non-muslim friends.
It was a day of asking forgiveness and spending time with family and relatives. And asking for duit raya as well :P shame on me..

Well, same ol' same ol' every year. Open house at my uncle's place for lunch and dinner. The next day (today) was at our place. Man, I'm so full >X

That aside, what about my college life? College is fine. I guess. Maybe. Maybe not. ARGH! Assignments are killing me now >< sucking the life out of me. Draining whatever strength I have left. Holidays :'( I need you. Please. I'll be good!!

My social life? Er.. Pretty dead, if you ask me :S refer to the paragraph above and you'll understand why.
I haven't seen my old friends in a long time. I wonder what are they doing now? Especially those whose birthday just passed this month.
Happy Belated Birthday to Auni (mai laling sayang kasihku mwaxxx~!!) <333 And to my dear overworked (seems to be enjoying the workload, tho) friend, Sufi :) and si landak Luqman oso! (budak sekolah!) Ahahahaha forgot about him! XD

That should keep me until mid-November, that's when my 4th semester ends. Hew hew hew. Wish me luck!

I guess that's all for now.
Turrah~!

P.S: I understand now =) thank you <3

OMG NOOOO PLEASE I DON'T WANT TO GET HOOKED ON ANYTHING NOW I'M LIEK SO BUSY IT'S NOT FUNNY OMG can't it wait till i finish my semester prease???

TT_____TT why did I have to start liking Kanjani8 (omg ryo n yoko is so fucking cute) and get overly obsessed with Gackt NOW??? (WO HEN DUO AI NI GACKT!! WO YE HUI JIANG HUA YU! Ni ke yi ai wo? Ke yi mah? Ke yi mah? Ke yi maaaahhhh? LAWL SO LAME <3333)

Youtube has been my friend idk whyyy damnit you will be the death of meeeee D:

Anyway!! Busy as hell nowdays, but there's a few assignments that I really like so I'm trying hard to enjoy what I do in order to get the best out of me :D

But damn I officially hate photography... I wish I had my own studio and darkroom T^T or else I won't hate it. Bargh.
And I hate the Peacevolution thing :( so hard to think of an idea. Even more so to get approval from the lecturer. I heard our photography lecturer is very strict on ideas... Hmmm... Must think of more ideas then T_T

Busy busy busy! Till my next post (which will be in a long time) zhai jiaaaaaaaannnnn~~!!! <333

-and because Gackt speaks mandarin fluently I shall work hard to improve mine so I can pick him up at a club and we'll just have so much FUN together MUAHAHAHHAHA damnit I should be doing my work now OTL-

P.S: Hahahaha Reign loves me lol XDDD I don't mind actually LAWL

I HOPE THEY FUCKING COOK YOU FOR DINNER!!! YOU JUST KILLED A MAN WHO HAD A PERFECT LIFE AHEAD OF HIM!! HE HAD A WIFE AND 2 KIDS!! HE HAD EVERY CONVICTION TO PROTECT ANIMAL RIGHTS AND HE WAS SO DAMN FULL OF LIFE!!!

STUPID STINGRAY!!! FUCKING DIE!!!

Of all things!! A stingray!! THE CROCODILE HUNTER GOT KILLED OFF BY A STINGRAY!!

Argh. I'm so sick of this. The world is unfair. The good people die early.

WHYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY

sob sob sob

in memory of Steve Irwin :( may he rest in peace.

I hope I feel better tomorrow. Field trip to Midvalley YAY!

...I know haven't blogged in here for so long. GAH!

OMGWTFBBQ I OFFICIALLY LOVE NEIL GAIMAN *hearts flying off everywhere*

'STARDUST' IS TEH BEST. BOOK. EVAH!! *wheeeeee*

*gets bricked*

on other news, I still don't feel so well. Yes. Still ;____; and I am so afraid that I have to remove my tonsils soon.
Yep. I got myself a headache, a cold and this irritating sore throat that acts up with 'perfect' timing.

BUT STARDUST OMGYAY CURED ME (but I'm still sick anyways) *dies under a hail of bricks and stones*

XD i do recommend this book for anyone who likes 'unconventional' (is that the word i can use here? 8D;) romance-type novels.
beware, some readers may think that it doesn't have depth. I don't care, the lightness has a lingering effect XDDD and it's fantasy-ish, so if you love faeries and unicorns and such, read >D it will do your body good.

Oh, registration for sem 4 is on the 26th. I reeeeeaaaaaaallllllyyyyyy hope classes don't start on the 31st ;____;
*dies*

...except that I have to come back on thursday to hand in my oil pastel work, acylic work and sketchbook to mr. Akif. Yes, I didn't finish it. Gah.

But OMG yay I'm done!! <333

Updates later when I get back. I'm using Rozy's laptop now :P

updates:

aw man. I really can't wait till monday.
but I need more time to finish off my assignments.

kweh. I shouldn't even be online now!! Stress relief, stress relief~

so on Monday, I will lepak till my legs get tired XDDD

hmm... and monday, adam will be driving my car to college and back @____@ not fair!! of course, reeis-chan will be joining us as well XD 3 goofballs in the car... not going to be peaceful at all >3

geh. my handphone died. it was a nokia 6111 and I've only had it for 2 weeks. XD; now I'm using the vintage nokia phone with colourless screen. well at least it's something DX

damn. I hope my mom will let me go to that Genting Highland trip with the whole Mafia gang ;_____;
fcuk landslides!! We'll be taking cable car >_<

My assignment for illustration, canvas is 50% completed. Which kind of shocked me because I've only spend 2 hours on it O_o;;

Next is photography journal, design history journal, design history report, burn necessary stuff for design history into a CD, burn all photographs into CD for photography, 1 oil pastel work and one acrylic work.

fuck. all that by monday.

I'm so screwed @____@

You Know When - You are truly internet savvy when you start seeing emoticons in everything you see:

I'll continue uploading this section >D

See the stone set in your eyes, see the thorn twist in your side. I wait for you.
Slide of hands and twist of fate, on a bed of nails, he makes me wait. And I wait without you.
With or without you... With or without you.
Through the storm, we reach the shore. You give it all but I want more. And I'm waiting for you.
With or without you... I can't live with or without you.
And you give yourself away, and you give, and you give yourself away
My hands are tied; my body bruised.
He's got me with nothing to win and nothing else to lose

With or without you... I can't live with or without you.
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I feel so moody today.

I think it might be this video by Utada Hikaru.

Crap. Finals coming soon. I won't be on LJ until June I think

;_____;

bye, all!!